Wow!!...... I think that's the understatement
of forever, for everyone, I mean really isn't like saying hindsight is 20/20?
How many time and places can you apply this to
your life. I know for me it's more than I can count.
All that said, life is too short to worry about
the past, so move on and live your life to is fullest
I'm working today. Honestly, everyday. It's
being a week since shit hit the fan. I don't understand, things have changed
for days now. I'm finding myself dealing with it better at home than work. But
at home I crave being out. Work reminds me how after a year I didn't learn the
right lesson of leavening people that don't value you or people that only
wanted to use you for your ideas rather than be creative!!!! It makes me feel
as if I have made no progress.. Yes I'm in the same position as last year and
things have changed. But today I am finding it hard. I am lost and I admit I
need o find my way back… A day at a time. What a shitty process!!!
I definitely wish I had known the paths my life
would take in my earlier years. Everyone has to pay his or her dues, and
everyone develops and matures over time. I just wish there had at
least been enough understanding of the clues. I knew I was different, I
knew my true ideals didn't match up well with others that I knew.....
Over time, I educated myself and I finally
found the real me.
Just wish I had known back then!!!
I wish I knew that there were people who HURT
other emotionally because deep inside they were many times more deeply hurt.
Then I wouldn't have to feel so sorry for myself when I was going through a
tough time being hurt by them.
It's my personal experience that it's harder to
forgive a friend than an enemy.
I understand these choices I've made in life,
the mistakes, the triumphs, the bonds and the experience all define me. The one
thing that I can't understand is the what if’s?
What if I hadn't been blind too what I had,
what if I hadn't walked away. This haunts me a lot!
Oh well, if a person never quit when the going
got tough, they'd have nothing to regret for the rest of their life. So I am
back to basic I guess, where it all started. When I had no manager or loads of
staff. When the chef I had then could not even flip a burger or know what a
soup of the day was. When the front staff could not know how to place a plated
plate in front of a customer. When art was just clutter that filled the walls
and passion was only for lovers. All in all I am well and blessed. But every so
often we all have to vent !!!
